So, I am slowly seeing results of my efforts.  It has not been hard, although I have been craving a Big Mac the last few days! :(  I am not giving in though.....I work too hard at this to ruin it with one sandwich! Not worth it!  I need to start working out now. That is the hard part. I cannot afford the gym right now - which is a problem.  It is too cold to be outside and I am exhausted at the end of the day. I need to work out in the morning. That is the best time. I have to figure out how I can afford this membership!

January 7, 2013 I chose to make a change for the better. I joined Weight Watchers. It wasn't for a New Years Resolution. It was because I finally looked in the mirror and said - ENOUGH! I am not going to live like this anymore. Hating the way I look, unable to look at myself in pictures, too self concious to have a healthy love life with my husband, and worried that I wasn't going to be around to see my children and grandchildren grow up.  The very first day I weighed in at home I was 286.1 lbs.  That is a hard thing for me to admit to. I am embarrased and ashamed of it.  The last time I weighed in at WW - I was 278.4 (at home I was 275.4) I am sticking to the program and trying to get some exercise as well.  I am going to document my journey. I want a place where I can come to vent, and struggle and admit when it's hard, but also a place to celebrate my victories and obstacles overcome.  Come along on my journey with me! I could use the support!